It's funny the things that you remember and that make an impact on you. The simplest things - a conversation, an innocent comment among coworkers - can really shed insight into yourself, how you see the world, and how the world sees you. I remember it vividly, even though it was half my lifetime ago (25 years or so): sitting in our office space, discussing television programs, and I mentioned watching the Waltons. My friend and coworker chimed in that she was shocked I watched the Waltons. Upon questioning, she revealed that she saw me as tough and strong, and not touchy-feely like the Waltons. Hmmm, really? I was taken aback and I was hurt. I care more deeply than most people I know. But I had dealt with a lot of crap even at that point in my life, and yes, I did have a hard outer layer - it was my defense mechanism. I still have it to an extent, but it's quickly broken down now, unlike then.
I've always been passionate about healthy eating and exercise as a way of life. I was a runner for 30+ years. It is what kept me sane, literally. I made a lot of bad choices in my younger days, all of which had contributing circumstances….or as I see it, I made bad choices to get away from some shitty circumstances, but whatever, running pulled me through. It helped me navigate the stresses and hardships of being a single mom for years. Being a single mom was a less awful situation than an alcoholic, abusive husband. Running got me through the death of my brother, father, ex-husband who was the father of my children, and favorite uncle, all within a two year span. Running really saved my life.
Now that I'm older, (wiser is still being debated, LOL) I can't run like I used to. My feet are pretty beat up, but I love to cycle, and my Peloton bike is my current love! I've found ways to support my energy and stamina to continue to plow through my personal struggles. I deal with massive amounts of grief surrounding the loss of my 29 year old son to a drug overdose, and my emotions are all over the place. But I've found ways to manage these issues and stay balanced and healthy, emotionally, physically, and spiritually. I have found healthier, more natural ways to support positive changes in my life. Before adopting some of these positive habits and healthier options, I was a mess, and truthfully, I still have days when I am a mess, but I'm not as much of a mess as I used to be. I found natural options to help me face and deal with my trauma, and loss, and anxiety, and crazies!!! I know I am healthier now than I've been in a long time, in all ways. Health isn't just diet and exercise - it's the whole package: physical, emotional, and spiritual.
Now, I am not afraid. I'm not afraid to face each day, I know God has provided to me what I need to get through each day. I trust that the holistic path he put in front of me is what he made me for. I know my heart wants to Love on others and help folks find healthier, cleaner, greener, less toxic ways to navigate through life. My struggles lead me products that have changed my life, and my goal is to help you find natural alternatives to help you through your journey.