When God Puts Something on Your Heart

Jul 31, 2020 01:31 PM Central
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When God Puts Something on Your Heart

More than a month ago, God put something on my heart that I never imagined He would do. He was very direct and clear. I'll be doing an extra thing from my website getoiling.com/earthssweetjoy.. I'll be helping women who've had an abortion and are sitll haunted by it, to heal holistically. Unfortunately, I'm an expert on this, because 33 years ago, I had an abortion with the man I was engaged to, who a few months later became my husband. I'm happy to report that he still is; somehow, by the grace of God, we've weathered this storm.

PLEASE UNDERSTAND THAT THIS IS IN NO WAY A POLITICAL STATEMENT OR A JUDGEMENT. No haters, please.

Nobody in 1987 could have predicted the far-reaching negative effects that abortions might have on women, for years and even decades later. As I say on my website, while we had our reasons, what it came down to is that we weren't active in our faith. Later on, when we were both actively seeking God, I can remember asking him: "What were we thinking?"

This is the first time I'm going public with this on Facebook. As you might imagine, I'm anxious. But, I know God's got this, and, as a friend just told me, He's got me!

If you think you might benefit from healing holistically from an abortion that still haunts you, please contact me through my website. I'm starting a private community where we can share our stories, support one another, share what we've done, and where I'll share my insights and healing experiences. You might also be interested in this message: https://getoiling.com/EarthsSweetJOY/landing/have-you-had-an-abortion-that-still-haunts-you-....

Many blessings on your Friday afternoon,

Carol Stribula

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Meet Carol Stribula

I was heavily burdened by a secret few people knew about. I felt isolated and lacked support for a long time. 33 years ago, I had an abortion while I was engaged to the man who soon became my husband. Although we had our reasons, what it came down to was that we weren't active in our faith. As we walked out of the clinic door that day, I said to my fiance, " I am NEVER doing that again!" Already, my deep sub-conscious knew what I had done was wrong.

My journey to healing from the shame and guilt I felt for making a really bad decision was a long one, and frankly, one I tried to avoid. But God wouldn't let me avoid it. About a year after my abortion, I picked up my medical records from my OB/GYN physician who'd done the abortion. My new husband was in the Air Force, was making a permanent change of duty station, and I needed to bring my medical records with us. I remember opening up the medical records back at our apartment, and discovering that my doctor had determined that I'd been pregnant with twins; she hadn't told me. My shame and guilt magnified. As did my sorrow.

I took about 29 years to really begin working to forgive myself and my husband. There were huge moments of grace along the way, as well as things that often triggered me. I began using products in March of 2012 that began to heal me in all ways -- physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually -- including releasing a lot of weight, but I still wasn't free.

Finally, in late summer of 2016, precipitated by a family crisis, I began doing emotional healing work including EMDR. This, amazingly, showed that some of my reactions to the crisis were related to the abortion and God's interventions to help me heal over the years.

By September of 2017, I felt I'd done enough emotional work, and terminated my EMDR therapy with my therapist's blessing. I wish I could tell you that all was well after that. But, it wasn't. I began having major issues with insomnia -- worse than ever before, and, I became sensitive to many different foods -- even foods that one would consider healthy.

Meanwhile, God was drawing me ever closer to Him.. In the summer of 2018, I started doing a couple of specific techniques which worked to further release my bad memories, calm me, and improve my sleep. Further healing from the insomnia gradually came. But when I added a brand new product to my nightly routine in August, 2019, it was a game changer!

There's more to my story, but that's for another time. If you've had an abortion that still haunts you, please know that you are not alone. Healing is possible and I’m here to help you. Come join my private, supportive Facebook group: Gentle Breezes. Healing is a journey best walked with a friend. It's time.