My health journey began fall of 2007 when I was a few months out to my wedding... what does every good Christian girl do? She goes and gets on birth control. Duh. No biggie. I went in to a doctor, asked for birth control, she prescribed something & I went on my way. No questions or concerns. Within the month of getting on them I gained 10 pounds (I knew that might happen so I wasn't too concerned) and then I started feeling off. Like crawl out of my skin, off. On our honeymoon I decided I was done.
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With each month after I got off of birth control I continued to gain about 10 pounds for almost a year. Um, not ok. After a year of this battle I found out I was insulin resistant, estrogen dominant, too low in testosterone and progesterone and my cortisol and adrenal glands were completely wacked out. On top of all that I was now battling depression, major anxiety and feeling like I was living in someone else's body with no answers on how to "fix it". One of the any doctorsI went to couldn't understand how I was sitting in her room upright, after looking at my blood work.
For years, I felt helpless inside my own body.
I battled depression, major brain fog, terrible insomnia, extreme weight gain &
fatigue when just breathing felt too much most days.
Up until this point in my life I had never really struggled with weight. I was tall, skinny and loved to eat. I lived for food with no consequences. I loved going to the gym and working out and I was studying to be a physical trainer right before I met my hubby.
This threw me a huge curve ball I never wanted.
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I have done everything under the sun from diet, cleanse, supplement, doctor, naturopath and chiropractor to help heal my body, to make it right. I have also spent waaaaay too much money in the attempt to heal myself. I had to become my own advocate and do the research my doctors were not willing to do. I was once told I was depressed because I was fat and I "should just loose weight".
At that time, I was training for a triathlon eating clean yet kept gaining.. Sorry doctor, try again.
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Ultimately I trust that the healing of my hormones and my body is in the Lords hands, my great physician. I have had to hold the tension between trusting His provision on this journey & doing all I can without being all consumed by it.
I have failed more than succeeded at that BUT I have learned so much in each season.
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My story is mine. I claim the times I have given up, felt defeated, and honestly wanted my old self back and treated my body like it could handle it. After having my youngest, 5 years ago I felt a renewed hope in this journey which is when I started THE WELLENSS WELL and my attempt to THRIVE & simply feel better. I was done circling that mountain and decided it was time to head north! I am determined to be the best me. I have no clue what that looks like for me and that's ok (as I repeat that to myself) I want to make wise choices because its wise, not because it's guaranteed I will get certain results. It feels like an uphill battle with this body of mine.
Even as I was learning how to integrate more holistic and “modern day hippie” habits into my life, I was hit multiple times a day with terrifying panic that overtook my senses, extreme weight gain, brain fog and hormonal dragon like senses that no one in my family appreciated. It was crushing.
One day, I was introduced to a few products that a lot of people are talking about lately.
To be honest, I’d considered it before, but I was skeptical. I’m not really into “fads.” If you know the enneagram, I’m a wholehearted “4”.
I refuse to be like others just for the sake of it.
This time, I knew the company who made it and trusted the source— so I tried it, I had nothing to loose.
Now, my life is dramatically different. I used to have to put on a face and pretend that I didn’t feel like I was dying inside.
Now, I’m fearless. And I’m on a mission to help a whole lot of women break free & empower themselves with the knowledge and resources I’ve worked so hard to get myself.
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