After Ken died, my health totally crashed. My fatigue was so bad that if I went out to do errands or shopping, I would spend 3 days minimum in bed recovering. Have you ever been so exhausted you could not even get up to go pee? I hated my life! Not only was I grieving for the love of my life, but how could I heal and move on if I couldn't do anything? I didn’t have the energy to barbecue, to plant a garden, to plant flower pots, not even to feed the birds.
I saw everyone else making plans, taking trips, enjoying family get togethers, and here I was held prisoner by my body. I wanted to do things, but I had no energy. If I did accept an invitation out for supper, I suffered a major crash that would set me back even longer then normal, and often I would get very sick.
I finally accepted the fact this was my life... a simple quiet life... convincing myself that it wouldn’t be so bad. I decided to be content with vacations on my deck, a movie, knitting an afghan, a short walk in the park.
But all the while I was taking Young Living supplements and essential oils religiously.
Then February of this year my family insisted on taking me with them to Mexico. I was scared of how I would make out. I knew I could plow through, but would have to brace myself for the crash afterwards. So off I went to the land of the sun, to play in the waves, and wiggle my toes in the sand. It was so therapeutic! Not just enjoying the sun and the ocean, but to be with my sisters and brother. This trip was a first for us, and it was so wonderful to enjoy long talks and lots of laughs.
March, no sooner did I get home when I was off on another trip, to Yellowknife Northwest Territories, for my step-daughter’s winter wonderland wedding. It was my first time back to the north since Ken died. That was our home for many years. It was wonderful being with his family, enjoying bonfires, fireworks, walks on the frozen lake, a hovercraft ride, and even a wicked icy slide down the ice castle which is built right on the lake.
April my sisters again talked me into joining them in Palm Springs on yet another great deal trip. I said no, but I guess I was not very convincing . I was like a little kid in a candy store when I saw the outlets. I was unstoppable with the “Start The Car!” bargains. Shopping, swimming, tanning, dining with my family ... enjoying laughter instead of tears.
June, unfortunately, brought a huge flood to Dawson Creek, and I was busy trying to get the water away from my home. I did have some damage in my basement and have since been renovating and getting that back together.
August was a big family reunion with my sister home from Africa. We rented trailers for the family, it was like a big campout. We helped our 102 year old dad with his huge garden. Yup you heard right... my dad is 102 and still gardening!
October I was off to the Young Living Silver Retreat in Salt Lake City Utah with my niece. We, of course, shopped and learned and laughed, and shopped and learned and then laughed some more.
And of course in between I was painting all the trim on my house, enjoying company, planting flowers, feeding the birds, and all the other busy-ness summers bring.
So here I am in November wondering why I feel like I ran into a brick wall? I was a feeling bit discouraged that my fatigue is bad again. But today I took a look back at my photo stream, and I couldn't believe what I saw. I was shocked! I did all that this year?? No wonder I am sleeping all morning. At least I am not spending the day in bed. I can't believe how much I have improved since last year, or the year before.
This year I feel like I am alive, yes, I am actually living! I am doing things I never dreamt I would do again. Thank you Young Living for adding life to my days!