After a 3-month concentrated recovery time to heal from the 10/7/2020 incident in which a fall on wet pavement fractured my skull causing severe head and brain injuries, I wanted to begin working this month.
Ya’all, I probably was one of the few people who was looking forward to that 1st Monday of work in 2021.
So on Monday, Jan 4, I excitedly drafted an up/rest schedule. Of note- my resting is very much needed for my brain to continue to heal. I felt it was a productive morning. However, I was not getting through my to-do list as fast as I had wanted. Add to my goose egg (point of injury at back of my head) beginning to thub midday more than usual, and I considered the day less than my best.
What eventually bubbled up is that I cannot expect to walk 5 miles in 5 minutes. And if it takes me 5 hours for now, that is okay.
Letting this realization sink in and take root will take time, I am realizing. Especially as Tuesday became a rest day due to poor sleep and my awful self talk. Simply, if I am to successfully move forward and succeed, I must reset expectations and grant myself grace. Throughout Tuesday night, every time I woke up (which was a lot, just like Monday night), I prayed. Thankfully, my attitude on Wednesday had a better focus. Bonus, my brain felt rested, too.
I changed up my up/rest schedule. Instead of 2 hrs up, 2 hrs rest … I knew I needed to crank out work in the morning. Reason, I feel my best in the morning. Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday were much better days.
My to-do lists are still long. I have big expectations and hope for my future. And I am just this month beginning to work again after three months of convalescing. I am still healing from this traumatic brain injury, I must remember this.
To be successful, I must rest to heal. I must work. I must give myself grace.
How was your week? Are you focusing on all the mistakes? I believe in you. And I believe you had more wins than you realize. Take a moment and reflect on things you got done, what you did well.
#YouAreWorthItKeepGoing
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