Today is a dreary, dark and rainy day here in the Southern parts of Oregon. Not the best day for a birthday.
Not to mention that the past week has been filled with sleepless nights and a LOT of coughing. Then, of course, last night we had a puker. Figures.
Another year, another year older. I am not impressed. I have goals that I have not accomplished. I have projects and books not completed. I am working hard to get my health back on track. Yet this week, I have felt like Failure. Yes, a Capital F failure.
Sometimes that is how mom life goes. Goals and things that are not always on my time frame. I mean, those little humans require attention and care and all. Sometimes I feel bad that I want my own time. I feel selfish. Yet, I also want sleep. I want to function and feel human and not give up my life and goals completely. Sometimes it feels like all or nothing. Lately, it feels like nothing.
My birthday has been sitting near my little sickie while being a dull mombie all day. Doing NOTHING. At. All. Feeling like the day is wasting away and the possibly fun that I could have had is now a distant glimpse of what my day could have been. All I wanted for my birthday was time with my husband and time at the gym. Self care. Neither happened. It is now dinner time and nothing. *Sigh*
The reality, mom life is HARD. Some days are discouraging. It is a battle to keep going and keep the enemy from stealing the joy. Especially when there is not always much joy to begin with.
But, I am alive and breathing and have a beautiful family that are amazing. When they are not puking.
I have oils and healthy tools. I have knowledge and strength to survive this season, however long. As long as I can get a night of sleep, I will keep on truckin'.
What do you do when you are at the end of you, struggling to keep on?
Yesterday, we saw A LOT of snow on the valley floor. It is not common to see here in our area of Southern Oregon. It was fun, as we come from Wyoming and Montana and are used to having a lot of snow and cold temperatures to boot. However, we did move here so that we did not have to deal with all the cold and snow like we are used to! It sure is beautiful!
Having a day with picking up children early, dealing with late buses, canceled events and a chill in the air, it was a perfect day for soup. I LOVE a good soup. :) Mmmm! It gave me a chance to play with my instapot and a new recipe. Our family enjoyed a wonderful chicken potato soup with garlic and cabbage and onions. I was able to use a recipe and modify it to include all the misc. that was in my pantry and fridge for a tasty dinner that EVERYONE enjoyed. It is always a HUGE #momwin when the 5 year old enjoys dinner and even asks for more!
Today, my girls had a lazy morning as it was a 2 hour late start. You know you have a teenage girl when a 2 hour late start means 2 hours of extra bathroom time. (???) I have no idea how THAT works but ok. I guess that is 14 for you.
Today is mom's day off. (Is that a contradiction or what?) No work for me. A day to watch HGTV and read a book. Time to hit the gym. Drink some Matcha Tea. Do some research and adjustments to my health/eating plan. A short time for ME. It is something that I am relatively new at. Something I am learning how to get better at. #momlife
Today is a day to use CLARITY essential oil to help m y focus and productivity- my time is limited and I want to be productive in my shortened day! What is your go-to oil for relaxation or productivity?
